Ugh

Needa rant , but i hate it so much cause i suck at words.
Yeah , i dont care about you guys .. Yea i dont care . Just because im not there for the gathering and birthday mean s i dont care!? Yes i admit i wasnt feel like going for the bday because i had thing s going on the earlier part of the day . & i didnt ask where were you guys . I could have somehow join you guys . There's was a period of time , i was rEally depressed and i didnt feel like going out w anyone. I was hiding the feelings whenever i went out w anybody. And somehow you made a joke out of that. Cny was a disaster . I could only join 1 event. I was crying at mine. You guys didnt reply til now . What am i suppose to feel . Thru out the whole of last year have you guys randomly text me ? Its always the outing then we text. Do you know what i have been thru? Dad's hospitalized , ahma being real sick , my school stuff or actually just plain caring for me ? When im with you guys , i feel im out of the convo , i was nvr in the convo . I ask , you guys didnt say . As time passes , i gave up. To claim that i didnt made the effort . Yea , im tired , i m giving up? Idk? Its ironic isnt it ? To tweet that ? I miss us , the happier times , the mugging for o's time . I wished it nvr faded away . Maybe its my fault . No, i have a part in making all these becoming sour . Im sorry .